Posting two days in a row? Haven't done that in a long time. I've decided to try and post at least once a day for the next week or so, until I delete all of this..just so I feel like I haven't totally neglected this site. I am still leaving, but probably not for a couple of weeks, like until school stuff starts happening. Registration is the 15th I think and open house is the 20th. So that means school starts on the 22nd...I think. I called Drury University today because they had called and left a message for me. I talked to this woman and she told me that with my ACT scores I can get in there and I already have scholarship money towards my tuition and everything. When I retake the test, if I get higher scores, I'll keep collecting money for that. She told me that to get into the school of architecture there you need to have had a lot of math classes. I've had 3. I'm not taking a math this year because I'd rather take physics. So I don't know if that'll affect anything or not.
Last weekend I got another pair of holes in my ears and they're starting to hurt really bad. I don't remember if they hurt this bad the last time or not. I was about 10, I think.
I had my senior pictures taken yesterday at 4. They took longer than I thought. We didn't leave until 6:30. Oh my God..it was so much fun. I had four changes of clothes and one outdoor session. The man was so nice and he told me everything that I needed to do. I was really worried about that. The last time I had pictures taken professionally I went to another photographer and they didn't tell me how to stand or anything. It was all up to me. And that was so long ago..about 8 years or so. But this guy told me everything to do. He told me how to put my hands and legs and everything, and then he'd come over and fix my shirt and my necklace and my hair and everything. It was great. I felt like a model. =P He told me I should be one, but he probably says that to everyone..but still I was flattered. He took me to this old abandoned rock building for the outside shots. He had me stand in this doorway with the sunlight on me and inside the building there were wasps or something making a nest and so they kept flying right past me, and one went through my hair. I hate bugs. Anyway, then he had my go through the building to a window and he was on the outside and he had me leaning through it and the sun was on my hair and all this stuff. He said it was a really good picture, so I hope he's right. He'd never used that location before, I was the first..=P Him and his wife also said that the picture of me through the window will probably go up on his wall in his studio. Haha, that'd be awesome. But I had so much fun.
I still haven't gotten my CDs from Matt, and now that him and Karen have broken up I'd feel weird about calling him and asking for them. So I don't know what I'll do about that yet.
When I was gone last weekend, my grandma was staying at our house to watch my dog. She said that on Friday some tall blonde guy with a red car came here looking for me, but she didn't get his name. He said he'd come back sometime this week, but he hasn't so far. I can't figure out who it was though. I can't think of anyone I know who's tall, blonde AND has a red car. I know guys with red cars. I know tall, blonde guys. But not all three combined. It's driving me crazy..
Anyway, I need to go dry my hair and get ready to go. I'm not quite sure what I'm doing tonight, but I'll find something.

Yes, new layout. I've hardly posted anything since I put up the last layout. Anyway, this is going to be the last layout here. I'm closing the site. Now I wish I could've come up with a better design for this last layout, but I couldn't come up with anything, plus I didn't really have the time. Now to explain why I'm doing this. I just don't have the time for it. I never post, I never update. I only change layouts but like, once a month. I think it's pretty pointless to keep it here if I'm not doing anything with it. Now if I were posting everyday, or coming up with different designs or new content or something, it would be different. But I really don't feel like messing with any of that. I've pretty much just had enough of all of this internet bullshit. So it's not just the site that's leaving, it's me. I'm starting back to school in less than a month, I'm going to have a horrible schedule and I have to pull my grades up this year. I'm starting a new job in a couple of weeks and I just won't have any time for any of this anymore. And frankly, I don't want to have time for it. I feel like I'm wasting my time just being on here. I rarely go out with my friends and have any fun anymore, and it's time I change that. It's like for the past year and a half (or more) I've just thrown myself into this huge virtual world and gotten completely lost in it. I've lost my sense of reason and that feel of reality. I've basically come to the conclusion that as long as I've been on here every feeling I've had has been false and misleading. I'm so tired of that. I'm sick of living in this chair and coming to this room every single day and seeking relaxation and comfort. I've been telling myself that I come on here to escape my awful chaotic real world life, when the truth is, this has become my life..and it's not even real. Why do I rely on a computer, on a phone line, to make me feel better? It doesn't help anything. It only makes it worse. It makes my life so much more complicated and stressful. That's funny when I think about it. Computer = stress. That's hilarious. So now that I've realized what's going on and what this is doing to me, I've made the decision to just give it all up. What would I be giving up exactly? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Sure, I'll have big gaps in my day that I'll have to find a way to fill..but I won't have a problem with that. Believe it or not, Caitlin does have a life. At least she has the potential for having one. I used to have one, I haven't figured out why that changed though. No more sitting in this chair, staring at this fucking screen for 2 hours a day. And I know that if I say "Oh I'll just cut back and I won't come on for as long.." that won't work. Something will stop me from leaving, and I'll end up staying on here all night. Now I'm not saying none of you who have me on your aim or icq lists will never see me again, I probably will be back every so often. Not near as much as I'm on now though..maybe once or twice a month. That's it. Plus with school, I have to use the computer for typing, research, etc..so that explains that. This may not be a big deal to anyone reading this, in fact..I'm sure that almost all of you reading this don't give a flying fuck what I'm doing. But I care, and I thought I should explain why I'm leaving. I'll probably keep this up for a week or two more, and maybe I'll even blog a little more. But after that, I'm deleting it all. Tracie has been a great host and I'd like to thank her for being so nice and letting me have some space here.

I've gotten all of the content back up. I haven't updated the survey though..I need to do that. I also got Traci's link back up. Sorry about that Traci.
I don't know if I'm satisfied with this layout or not. I like the blue though. It's a nice change.
I helped Karen move today. From 1:30 until 5:45 we were moving her things out of Matt's basement to her mom's house. Matt lives about 25 miles out of town, too, so it took a long time. She was planning on moving out last week, but her mom had to go out of town, so she wasn't going to until next week..but last night Matt kicked her out. So at midnight she went to her mom's house and stayed there (her mom was back home for a few days)..then this morning she went back out to Matt's to start loading stuff into her car and I guess he was a mess and was really sad and said that he didn't want her to go and that he'd change and all this shit. So she called me crying, on her way home and asked if I'd help her move when I got back from town. I said sure. I'd helped her move out of her mom's house, I might as well help her move back in. So Karen was doing okay until we got done and at 7:00 or so she checked her email and Matt had emailed her and she started crying. Her mom told me that I'd better help keep Karen away from him, and keep her mind on other things for a while, until she gets over it. A two and a half year relationship isn't going to be easy to get over. =| But she's got great friends, and her mom really cares. I think she'll be okay.
The other night..uhm..Saturday, I think, we went and saw America's Sweethearts. It was so good. Great cast. Then we cruised for a while, but that got boring.
Last night I stayed up till 1:30 or so talking to Rick. That was pretty great, cause I haven't really talked to him in a long time. He needs to call me, ahem.
I need to call Jennifer. I talked to her about a month, nooo, more than that. Probably a month and a half ago, and I had to go and I never called her back. Great friend I am, huh? So I need to do that. I also need to talk to my dad about giving me a job lol.
Hmm..well I'm tired and I want to take a shower..

One more thing..
Love you sish!!
lol okay..

New layout....finally!
I have to leave now, so I don't have time to update the content..so you'll have to be patient and all and wait for the new images for those and all that crap.
And on the links to the right >>
The ones at the top, when you click on them..it moves the page down some. Don't ask why, I don't know. It's probably something simple that I'm missing. But if you just click them again, they'll work. Sorry about that..I'll work that out when I work on the content.
xoxo

Oh yes..
Happy Birthday to Lou!
Love you Lou!

Still no new layout. I haven't had the time, nor the inspiration to make one. So it may be a while before there's a new one up. I went to the fair Saturday night with Karen and we met Matt and Adam and their family there. Matt went to watch some sort of car racing thing..whatever it was. So me and Karen rode the rides. We had just gotten there and these two guys came up to us and one was like, "Will you ride the canoes with me?" (he was talking to me). I turned around and looked at them and they're like these little bitty canoes for 3 year olds, so I said "Uhm, I don't think so." Then he started to beg, I was just standing there like uh.. So then he stopped and told me to find him if I changed my mind. I would've ridden a ride with him, just not the canoes. =| He was pretty cute, too. ; ] So then I felt stupid for letting him leave and all. Blah, that's how I am. Freaky. I've got an enormous amount of confidence built up in me, but at the same time I have no ability whatsoever to show it. I only saw a couple people I know there. I saw this girl Melissa, and this other chick Christy. And then I saw Nolen, and I yelled at him, but he didn't hear me or see me or something.
Alright anyway. This Destiny girl that's sending out my pictures also says that she's running this site with me. Hello, no. I emailed her, but I was given the wrong email address. No big deal. I don't care. She obviously got the pictures off of my site, so maybe she's read all of this. Hopefully. Two words for you, reality check.
I met this guy David on here. I've only talked to him a couple of times, but he's really cool.
What else can I talk about. I'm getting my senior pictures taken on August 1. Tomorrow I might be doing something with Cassy. I haven't seen her in forever. Actually I saw her yesterday. =P But only for a minute. She and I were at Sonic at the same time. Love @ limeades.
This whole Condit/Levy thing is getting on my nerves. I don't think they're going to find the girl. I think he probably paid her off and she's in hiding somewhere. Just my take on the situation.
Hmm..I'm talking to Cary about Library Science. I love that class!
Oh oh ohhhhh! Karen and I watched some of Coyote Ugly yesterday because it was on Starz or something. So then we went out driving around and stuff. Then on the way home we got an idea to make our own shirts. We wanted to be Coyotes. lol..nerds. Anyway, we went to JCPenney's and Maurices and couldn't find any plain shirts that we liked, so we went to Wal-Mart and found some. We got leather lace stuff and some other leather to cut the letters out of. We ripped the sides of the shirts and made holes and put the lace through, so they lace up both sides, and they say Coyote on the front in black leather/suede stuff. They're awesome! lol..I think we're going to make British shirts next. Like with British flags on them or something. Haha, we're such dorks. We're looking into going to London. That would be so cool. We're gonna find out how much plane tickets and hotel rooms and everything would be.
West Plains was in USA Today on Thursday I think. I had saved it the newspaper, but I think my dad threw it out. Psh. West Plains is the town I live in..just to fill you in.
I'd type more on that, but my computer is acting weird all of a sudden so I'd better get this posted before I lose it.
Later.

Heyyyy guess who's back!
First off, I'd like to talk about just a couple of uhm, issues..and then I'll tell you about my week.
Rick and Bryan (I guess it's the Bryan I know..?): STOP SIGNING MY FUCKING GUESTBOOK LIKE THAT! If you want to sign to talk to me, then sign. But don't spam it with that shit. And I'd like to apologize to anyone they may have offended..I'm sorry for having such immature friends that know nothing about respect.

Moving on. I just checked my email a few mintues ago and got an email from someone I kind of know on here. I won't reveal her name because I don't know if she'd get mad or anything. Anyway..here's some of the email..

I was just wondering, if you run your website with a girl named
Destiny? There seems to be some drama going around. Destiny has been saying that the attached picture is of her, not you. It
maybe stupid but I just wanted to prove something to my friend.
When I browsed your website I thought the pictures are of you or are they not?
sorry for any trouble.Thanks.

She was extremely nice about it, so I want to thank her for that. And I'd also like to thank her for saying that she thought they were of me. The picture attached is of me. So why the hell is this whore Destiny saying it's her? Hmm..someone's jealous! Lmfao, it's so funny. But at the same time it bugs the hell out of me. If this girl is still sending out my picture saying it's her I have one thing to say to her...get a life. Are you that desperate? That ugly? Wow, that just boggles my mind. I mean, there's plenty of other girls' pictures you could have taken from sites and said they were you. Why me? What the fuck is up with that? You have some serious psychological problems. Get your own identity and stop taking mine away. I have dozens upon dozens of pictures of myself, my room, etc. So if anyone doesn't believe that the pictures I post here are of me, then say something and I'd be more than happy to prove it to you. Try asking this Destiny girl to prove that it's her. I guarantee she'll come up with some lame story. What a whore. Am I that beautiful? Ha! ; ]
So that's my excitement for the day.

When I got home today at about 3:30, Karen called me and she came over and we went to McDonalds..ugh. lol, I don't care for McDonalds. Anyway, these guys stopped as we were walking across the parking lot and they said something about the Marines and something else, like "I'm in the Marines" or something. I have no idea, so we just gave them a weird look and kept walking, but I kinda smiled as we went past..and then they were like "Yeah, you can ignore us if you want" ..So we said okay. heh..
Me and my parents went to Galveston, Texas for the week. We left last Saturday and got back today. It was a lot of fun. I wish I lived on the beach. Sigh. I got sunburnt. Not real bad though. Just my ear. My ear is all blistery..yuck. Just on the top though. And my shoulders and chest are red. Major tanlines. =| I met a couple of cool people. So that was awesome. We had this condo thing that had a balcony that was over a pool and you could see the gulf across the street. My mom and I sat out on the balcony every night for like an hour and made fun of people. Oh it was great. There was this guy on a balcony across the pool from us and he had one of those laser thingies one night. You know those red light things..? Whatever they are. He kept shining it on my legs and then I think he got bored with me, so he moved on to some ladies that were walking on the street. It was hilarious. He'd shine it on their stomachs and they'd look around like what the heck? And then the next day he had binoculars (sp? I'm too lazy to look it up now). He kept looking at me with them. Kinda freaked me out, but oh well.
I'll post more about this stuff later..and I'll try to get a new layout up tonight or tomorrow or Sunday. I don't know when I'll have enough time to do it.

Okay, so Blogger fucked up my tables. I didn't do it! And I tried to fix it, but it didn't work. And now I can't even edit how it looks, it gives me some lame message. So anyway, it'll have to stay this way until I get back..? Unless it changes back on it's own. Grr.

FUCKING BLOGGER!

Okay, so I didn't get around to making a new layout. Too bad, it'll have to wait till next weekend. I need to do all my packing tonight becuase we're leaving first thing in the morning. I made a list of everything I have to take. There's no way all this crap is going to fit in my suitcase.
I was talking to Karen the other day and she's like, "Like, you could be in that movie Legally Blonde." I was offended. =|
I worked today and this girl Sheila was there for the first 30 minutes of my shift. I worked with her last summer and we kinda became friends. Anyway, she's 15 and is about my height with kinda light brown hair and she had glasses last year, but she doesn't now. She's really pretty. Yeah okay, this lady walked by and she was like "Are you two twins?" We were like, "Uh, no." Then she said, "Well you guys look so alike!" Then she left and me and Sheila turned to each other and were like "What the hell?!" We look nothing alike. It was kinda strange.
Yesterday Karen came over here from about 2 to 9. We left at some point and returned movies and cruised a little. But we talked on Yahoo voice chat the whole rest of the time. It's so funny. We go in rooms and start singing and we always ask if there's any British people there, lol. Love @ the accent.
Tonight I went and ate with my grandma and the people who live on her floor in her building. It's an apartment building for older people. Anyway, Lorene went to Wendy's and bought bacon cheeseburgers for all of us. Man, I was like "Damn, I came on a bad night." Cause I thought I hated burgers lmfao. I hadn't had one since oh my, I was about 8. So that means in going on 10 years I hadn't put a hamburger in my mouth. My mom and I went to McDonalds and they gave me onions and mustard on my burger so I got mad and was boycotting them or something. Don't ask. Okay, so I tried this one tonight and HOLY SHIT. Now I want more. I'm a nerd. It was so good though.
When I get back next week I'll write on some topics to maybe hold some interest of anyone who reads this..
Since I'm gonna be gone for a week and some people won't be here when I get back I'm gonna send a couple little personal messages to people on here...

Lisa: Have fun at your party honey. ; ]
Since I can't be there, flirt with a hot guy for me, alright? Lmfao I don't even know what kind of party it is that you're going to. There's gotta be someone decent though, right? And if you are leaving the net for the summer or whatever, don't do it until I get back! =D
Oh yeah, also don't start at Hooters till I get back. Bunnies rock. ; ]

Rick: Have fun in Cancun. Like lots of fun. Drink, smoke, get laid, whatever. Haha, seriously though. And don't miss me tooo much. ; ]

Lissah: Cry. I MISS YOU!!! I hope you and your baby are okay. I love you sish!


Okie doke, I'm leaving.
Oh yeah, I've been getting people from around here adding me to their ICQ lists and I think that's awesome. If you come here and you're from southern Missouri or northern Arkansas, dude..talk to me! lol..
Alright, now I'm leaving.
xoxo